Saturday, January 31, 2009

thinking of Kathryn... and therefore Seth

Don't want to get into it but just wanted to say that Kathryn was on my mind an awful lot today... and then of course becuase of that so was Seth. Sending up prayers for you all and keeping that special sweet baby in my heart and my thoughts.

~ Patti D.

Monday, January 12, 2009

Seth in my thoughts

I've been thinking of Seth today a lot. There's a lot going on in my head, some tough decisions to make about our Ben, and so why that triggers me to think of Seth I'm not entirely sure but it does. He was on my mind because of that already and all morning thoughts of him and the whole family were flitting through my head as I got on with the days activities and appointments. I saw the pristine snow reflecting the sun like little diamonds and thought of Seth. I saw the ice clinging to the rocks by the side of the road and thought of Seth. It was just a case of Seth on the brain.

After I got home with the kids from Ben's appt. a friend of mine, Alan, called. He told me that he was stranded down in the next town over with no ride home (and a broken ankle) and would I mind coming to get him. I told him of course not and threw the kids back in the car and was off to get him. I picked him up and drove him home, he lives just a few houses down from ours, and we stopped and talked a bit. His wife passed away last May. He's raising their three boys on his own now, doing the best he can and getting by day by day. He told me that in December when they were putting up the tree his youngest, Ryan who is 5 y/o, found the angel for the top of the tree that his wife had bought and loved so much, a beautiful angel with a porcelain face painted on by hand. He said that Ryan looked at the angel and said "Look! It's Mummy! Mummy's our angel!" (they're British). Ryan told Alan he wanted to wanted to hug and kiss "Mummy" so Alan handed over the angel to Ryan and he hugged it and gave it little kisses on the cool porcelain cheeks and kept saying "I love you Mummy" over and over. Alan was in tears at this point and I held his hand and patted his back and cried with him. It was so heartbreaking. Alan just said "I miss her so much. I just miss her and it hurts." and we talked and cried and talked some more.

That got me thinking of Seth too. How you can miss someone every second of every day and it just hurts. Not just a pain in your heart but a physical pain too. So I drove down the street thinking of Seth and how much his family misses him every single day... so much so that it hurts... and I cried some more.

I'm thinking of you all and holding you up in prayer every day.

~ Patti D.

Friday, January 9, 2009

Sunshine In Our Hearts

I was sitting here this morning on my "off" Friday, pondering the beautiful sunny day outside, and wondering how I am going to spend it. Of course, I already know that I have more chores on my list than I can possibly get done in one day. As I admired our sunny day, I recalled the news report I saw last night about the severe weather, snow, flooding in the Northwest -- and of course thought of K, and how I wished I could ship some of this beautiful weather up to her. I'm sure she could benefit greatly from a little bit of warmth and sunshine right now. Then I came here, and I saw that BEAUTIFUL little "sunshiney" face of Seth. What a GORGEOUS little boy! I thought to myself, "if THAT isn't a little piece of sunshine from God, I don't know what is!" And although we all know that it would be so much better for US if he were still here in his earthly home, I'm certain that God's little ray of sunshine is looking down on his family and wishing for them a day of happy hearts and smiles. Thank you Seth, for reminding us that God is in control, and He can give us sunshine in our hearts, even when the weather outside is cold and gloomy. -- Grandma P

Monday, January 5, 2009

Empty Arms

My arms felt so empty that October day that Seth went to "play with Jesus" as Auntie B so aptly put it. I had never had the privelege of holding Seth, or even meeting him face to face. I hadn't had the pleasure of smelling his sweet baby innocence. I hadn't held ANY baby in nearly a year. But that day that Seth left this earthly home, my arms ached with the very real loss of such a sweet little baby boy. And yet I know that my feeling of loss is so minute compared to what his parents and siblings feel. I can only begin to imagine the emptiness in their arms. But in the short time that Seth was with his family, and extended family, he touched more lives than we will ever know. I will always remember Seth as the little guy who made a big mark on his world. As the days go by, ever so unexpectedly, my mind sparks with a little "twinkle" of memory of Seth, and I lift up a prayer that God will somehow lesson the pain of the empty arms of Seth's mommy and daddy. I just wait for that next "twinkle" so I can have another word with God about this. I like that He gives me lots of opportunities for that! We love you Seth....

Grandma P

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Our littlest angel

The other day I saw an angel ornament and my thoughts immediately went to Seth. Not a day goes by that I don't think of him or his family. He touched my family in a way that I didn't think possible. David still prays for him and wonders why a baby would be born with a broken heart. Today, tomorrow and forever, Seth will be our "Baby Seth".

Love, Aunt Amber

Sweet Seth

Since Seth's passing on October 12th I think of him so often. I'll be sitting with Kit or doing something with the children and Seth pops into my mind and I think of him and send up a little prayer and go on with my day. I think to myself I wish I could tell Kathryn how often I think of Seth, those small fleeting moments as you just go through your normal day to day life. So I thought of making this place. A little place where we can write a lot or just a line to say "I thought of Seth today" so that Kathryn and her entire family will know that he is NOT forgotten... he will always be remembered.

I never held Seth in my arms, but I miss him. I know that so many others miss him and think of him and ache over the loss of him sometimes. So here we have it. A place to remember Seth and talk about him and remark on the ways he touched our lives.

~ Patti D.